Plenty. Adequate. Sufficient. Enough.
We live in a society where enough is a seldom used term. We always desire something extra, something more. Just one more Kate Spade purse. Just that other pair of Toms (especially since my first pair is so comfortable). Just one extra shot of espresso in my latte, because what is 50 more cents in my already $5 latte. What's a few extra dollars or cents, calories or sugar. Society pushes, and we continue to plead for more.
But, what about when this craving of "more, this never being enough implodes not only from our wallets and debit cards, but also into us, our schedules, activities, plans, desires and dreams. Just one more work out class. One more club to help with after work. One more way to make and save a little extra money to buy a house. Even one more Bible study or place to serve. Even when good things continue to beg for "more" it can leave you exhausted, burned out and, unfortunately, complacent about the things, people and relationships that matter most.
I am terrible at saying no. I first started to struggle with this about a year and a half ago. I realized one days how many glasses of water I felt like I strategically balanced on a tray...I was a girlfriend, a friend, a daughter, a sister, a mentee, a table group leader, a bible study leader, a Sunday School member, and a speech pathologist by day. As each of these roles began to demand more and more of me, I felt as if my well held up glasses of water were out of room on my tray...they felt as if they were overflowing and were about to drown me. I felt as if I was a tiny speck of a person standing helplessly on a beach, looking up in fear as a towering tidal wave encased me. I was fighting to keep my head above water. What can we4 do-- what options do we have when we literally cannot be enough.
After weeks of coping any and every way I could conjure up- with lethargy and apathy, exhaustion and giving all I had to every activity I partook in, something, or Someone intervened- the only one who is more than enough for all of us. The Holy Spirit brought to my heart a conviction-- that all of my time, my schedule, my commitments were God's. Just like all of our money is God's in the first place, so he is the only one fit to have control of it, all of our time is also God's, and he desires to reign over our planners, Outlook calendars and iPhones, too. Christ is enough for all of us. He took all of those fragile and full glasses of water, all of those responsibilities and roles. Now, I know that as I trust more fully in Him and know that He is all I need, that I am enough, as long as I give him control and rely fully on His strength. As God and His purposes for me govern my time, my energy, my roles. I know that I have- and am plenty. As He was and is enough to cover and redeem my sins, He is also enough as I relinquish control of the reigns of my life to Him.
Thankful to serve a God who gladly yearns to control and comfort, despite my attempts to be enough.